Memory Making - what we have done - and what we wish we had done
MEMORY MAKING GOING FORWARD
I have done a lot to make memories over the years, and I thought it might be helpful to share them here. Making memories doesn't have to stop when you have to say goodbye to your baby. I hope that you managed to make all the memories you could during the time you had with your baby, have lots of cuddles and photos, take hand and footprints and just managed to do what you needed to do... You can keep making memories, keep parenting your baby. I have a lot of things I wished I had done, but hindsight is a great thing.I thought I would share some things that I have done since ...
For us it is nice to have 'somewhere'. This is our peaceful place.
It really is beautiful out there, I can't imagine ever thinking this before, but now that he is there, it is.
A very special place.
I created this mosaic - and I had never ever done anything like this before - celebrating our family.
In my grief and with my inability to really think clearly, I made an extra star - the stars represented all our children. Later of course, I believe this was a sign from Koby - as in this picture there is a rainbow (bottom right corner) the last star was my rainbow baby, who now delights, entertains, and helps to heal us ... and Koby knew and tried to comfort me then with this.
It is currently filled with
masses of red flowers. I change the colour of the flowers each year, but am often drawn to purples and blues for him, as this is the colours I associate with him. There are gorgeous blue iris's that flower in pots beside the garden also, which are Kobys flowers, they are from my Mums garden, as she bought them to his funeral.
The collection grows constantly as we find new things, and each year we also buy him a Christmas decoration which also lives here.
I partake in the global event organised by CarlyMarie where I take a photo each day for the month of October, around my grief, and I like to get these printed into books.
I have done this for the last 3 years.
This is a free service she offers for those with angel babies, and she has a million other stunning designs too.
In an image above you'll see I have it printed onto a tile ... which was done by Nicky at Nix Dungeon.
This one is made out of one of Kobys outfits. It is wonderful having something that is his weight - somehow makes him more real.
They are his actual footprints, and mine are actual size... with his name of course.
I love that I carry these with me all the time.
A very treasured possession, and amazing for cuddling.
My Teddy is the place to go for these.
This one sits on our dining table with some other keepsakes.
Made by Mosaic Names with Love ...
We had a custom print designed by Nikki at The Little Curator - she made this one especially for Koby but has amazing ideas and a unique style so can make something amazing for you if you wanted! Note we have elephants on the moon (Elephants never forget), and a butterfly on the swing ... I can picture him this age sitting on a swing in heaven watching over us. I love it so much.
The very first gift we received after losing Koby was a little elephant with a card that said "Elephants never forget". Ever since then Elephants (and butterflies, and iris's have kinda been Kobys 'thing').
I recently had this made by Nadia at Jay and Bee ... she makes amazing nail art and can do pretty much anything! It is on upcycled timber too which makes it extra special. I put a little disc on it myself saying "Because Elephants Never Forget" just cos that is my thing.
Another global event I took part in last year - making a prayer flag for Koby. This is also organised by CarlyMarie.
I appreciate the beauty and (when I have time!) I love to photograph flowers and rain and anything beautiful.
Along with these things, as I said we always celebrate his birthday, take cake out to the cemetary ... his headstone has a little enclosure - door - and we 'update' the toy in there with his birthday present. For Christmas 2015 I bought new stockings and have one for Koby. All the kids (Koby included) get a new decoration each year to put on the tree. Koby's traditionally so far have been sparkly butterflies, but will probably be doing something different this year. I fairly often buy things for him, elephant related, I have a new nail art with an elephant, elephant pictures, as well as of course making myself new jewellery. I have shell flowers that I bought for out at the cemetary, just things that catch my eye and remind me of him. Changing around his garden, helping others, talking about him, all these things make me feel closer to him x
Things I *wish* I had done when we had Koby with us - but just didn't know about ...
Jen from Angel Casts - does castings of angel babies in the Waikato.
This is something I wish beyond anything I had known about, and would be so treasured.
There are others throughout NZ who do this amazing service as well.
Can you ever have enough photos when you just have a few days to capture them ?
When you dont realise how important these photos will be later ? There is not one photo of me and Koby together. I didn't want to be in photos. I wish I could go back in time and have hundreds of photos of me with him.
Heartfelt are a group of amazing photographers who offer a free service of creating photographic memories. Again, I wish so much I had heard of them, or at least understood the importance these photos would have as time passed.